Not sure what to say..I was in a pretty good mood today but I'm sitting here in the dark listening to kinda sad music. I guess I am feeling..not really sad kinda nostalgic. I had a long talk with my mom about religion,beliefs and life. My mom is really an amazing woman with all the things she's put up with and dealt with. We have our differences and might not get along sometimes but she helps me a lot and has always been there for me. I think she tried to shelter me from a lot of bullshit as a child and protect me. She is a good woman and tries to help everyone and she is really sweet.I think she should be happy and I feel bad that she is not.
Parents tell you so many things to do/don't based on their life. My mom's big life lessons: Don't be with someone with an addictive personality."drugs/alcohol" Don't get married. If you get married make sure its someone you love for them. Don't expect someone to change cause they wont. What you see is what you get. You can't change a person..getting married and having a child wont change someone..mostly. Live, go do things and have experiences good and bad, they make you who you are and you'll have something to look back on.
I really wish I wasn't an only child, I wish I had brothers or sisters :( I told my mom today, I wish I was an aunt and I learned that she wishes she could be a grandma but she'll never experience that and I felt horrible that she said that. way to go mom for making me feel bad :'( Now I feel like I need to have a kid being an only child..I'm the only hope.
What else... I'm really happy with my boyfriend right now. Things are nice and I love him. It's a really good relationship and I'm happy.
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