Ignoramus

Sometimes I feel like the biggest idiot on the planet. It seems I ALWAYS say and do the wrong things to everyone. No wonder why people hate me. I'm socially retarded. I think I'm funny or doing the right thing and I'm more likely then not, not. I think I deserve to be alone and away from human contact. Why is it so hard to not fuck up? God, I feel like I'm a waste of creation. My whole life is a fuck up. I feel utterly worthless.Will anyone ever get me and understand me?

I guess Thats another thing I need to work on next year. Stop being funny and stop using social networking sites.Stop inserting foot in mouth! I totally see myself being lonely and pathetic my whole life. If I make it that long.

I'm feeling like an asshole today due to 3 fucked up emails about how I'm such a bad person. Can someone please help me? What do i do wrong? I try so fucking hard to get along and please everyone which is alway an epic fail. :( I can never win.

Sometimes I just want to cry or maybe its just the alcohol. Either way.